SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO LEAVE

I know he is not in there on the phone talking to a female, while I'm at home and the kids are walking around...He is so rude and disrespectful to me and I am getting sick and tired of being sick and tired..I need to call that lawyers office and see what is going on my divorce case, that stupid judge just doesn't understand what I go through on a daily basis living here in this hell. See, that's just like a man not to think its anything wrong because he thinks families should stay together no matter what the cost...This is not the 1950's where women dont have a say in their lives, we work everyday and contribute to the household bills just like our husbands. I need someone to look out for me and my kids best interest and it doesn't seem to be that country simple ass judge I have presiding over my case.

I got the kids fed and bathed and put everyone down to bed, after we said our prayers...I am blessed that the kids are on a schedule and don't give me too much trouble. All I want to do is take a shower and get in my bed and rest my mind, it is getting harder and harder living in this house with him. The water feels so good running down my body, its is hot like I like it and soothing to my aching head and bones. I thought I heard something but, just figured I was hearing things and didn't dwell on it too much. The next thing I know is the shower curtain is jerked back and Eugene is standing there naked as hell with a crazy look on his face. He then has the nerve to ask me if he could join me in the shower..My response of course was, HELL NAW AND GET OUT EUGENE!!! "I don't want to fight with you tonight, please leave me alone, was my plea to him." He pulled me by my hair and made me lose my balance and I fell on the cold tile floor.. I thought I liked this ceramic tile, but if you fall on it you will wish you made another choice. My lip started bleeding and my right shoulder was throbbing really bad. "Please Lord not again", was all was thinking when Eugene pulled me up and carried me into the bedroom. I begged him not to hurt me, but of course I was talking to deaf ears because he threw me on the bed..Before I could get my barrings together and get up he was on me, and just slammed into me without preamble..."Please don't do this, was my plea to try and make him see that it shouldn't have to be like this." Of course, he was getting a rush from dominating me and as far as he was concerned, I was still HIS WIFE, and he had a right to take my body anytime that he wanted to..

The pain I felt on my lips and my eye after he had smacked me several times, were nothing compared to the excuriating pain I felt in my kitty kat and my ass...See, he is very violent and that is one reason why I want to leave him is because when he gets angry with me he takes me from behind without any kind of lubricant at all...He gets pleasure from my pain, he is in to totally dominating me..I don't want a new Daddy, I had a great Father, but he grew up in an abusive home and he feels that's how we should live...He finally rolls off me after about 2 hrs. and falls asleep...I drag myself off the bed and go and get in the shower again to wash the stench off me that I feel from him...He is a straight pig and he will get his one day, I need to get a plan together to get out of this house and very soon...My kids didn't hear the commotion, but one day they will and I don't want them to have to live in fear for their little lives.

The next morning I get up and hurry to get the kids ready and out the door before he wakes up. The first thing I do when I get to work is call my law office to speak with the paralegal that has been so helpful to me. I was asking her about my case and what can of recourse I had on speeding up this procedure. She informed me she was doing all she could do get me divorced but everyone seemed to be dragging their feet. I couldn't take it any longer and I burst out crying in her ear and told her I couldn't take the abuse anymore and refuse to keep getting raped by my husband. She screamed in the phone, "What?" He has been raping you? Why didn't you tell me was her response? She then informed me she would get me a court date on an order of protection and for me to tell the judge everything that I had just told her...My paralegal called me back in 30 minutes and informed me I had a court date in 7 days...I was on pins and needles in anticipation of the date, we get to court and I asked the judge if I could speak and he said, of course, and I proceeded to recant the incident that had happened last week and so many times before...The judge was irate, and cursed Eugene out and granted my divorce right then and there...I was so elated I could burst, I went in for one thing and ended up getting the greatest blessing of all, MY FREEDOM...WHEW, it has taken two years to get this, and I feel like I have died and gone to heaven.

I called the law office and asked the receptionist to speak with the paralegal and told her what had happened and she was so excited for me. She then informed me that the court system didn't play spousal rape just like any other rape and they take that very seriously...She knew the judge would grant me the divorce but, I just never said anything because I was afraid of the retialiation from Eugene. And, I didn't really want everyone to know my business, you see I am a very private person. But, if I had known this would speed up my divorce, I would have disclosed that information two years earlier.
THIS STORY IS TRUE, IT IS ABOUT ONE OF MY CLIENTS AT THE LAW FIRM WHERE I USED TO WORK...THE NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED, BUT THE STORY REMAINS TRUE OF SO MANY WOMEN AROUND THE WORLD...THERE IS NEVER AN EXCUSE TO BEAT YOUR WIFE OR HUSBAND, IF SOMEONE MAKES YOU WANT TO HARM THEM, YOU NEED TO GET OUT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. LOVE SHOULD NOT HAVE TO CONTINUALLY HURT YOU, MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY AND ESPECIALLY PHYSICALLY...