DADDY WHERE ARE YOU?

This portrait is titled, "Waiting for Daddy", by Meryl Jaye. I really like this piece because it shows a little girl who loves her daddy and she is waiting patiently for him to pick her up. Her mom has dolled her up all pretty and and put on his favorite dress, ruffle socks and mary jane shoes and she has combed her hair just the way he likes it. He seems to be taking too long to get there but, she does not cry or get in Mom's way she just sits there in anticipation for his arrival and just looks out the window for his car to pull up. Don't think for one minute that she doubts him, he will be there, however late because he has never told her he was going to do something and didn't do it.

The one thing he always taught her was to stand by her word, when you tell someone you are coming thru for them, by God you better do just that or have a valid excuse why you can't. His favorite quote that he always stressed to her was, "Always be Consistent and Considerate Princess".

But, everyone hasn't had this kind of stability in their lives, and your walk through life can be so much different. And you could live in a world where no one seems to do what they say, when you have let down after let down until you are just numb. It cannot be a good feeling, and you start building up walls and closing your heart to people and only depending on yourself. You want to let people in your front seat, but time and time again you keep getting disappointed, so you just say forget it, I'll do me and you do you.

Where were you Daddy when I scrapped my knee on the playground?

Where were you Daddy when I cried because the monsters were in my room?

Where were you Daddy when I got into my first fight after school?

Where were you Daddy when uncle Leroy touched me on my budding breast

Where were you Daddy when Charlie from across the street put his hand down my panties

Where were you Daddy when I won the regional Spelling Bee?

Where were you Daddy when the cake I made for the church picnic fell and the other kids laughed at me?

Where were you Daddy when I won the award for my community service work at the nursing home?

Where were you Daddy when my prom date took my virginity and I begged him not to?

I came to you and tried to tell you, but you thought I was being fast and you didn't hear my words

Where were you Daddy when my stomach was getting bigger because of the baby that was growing inside of me from the rape was born?

Where were you Daddy when I had to face all the stares and ridicule on my own because when you looked at me I could see the disgust in your eyes?

Where were you Daddy when I graduated with honors in spite of having a baby in high school?

The only person I needed to see at the graduation was you, and you never showed up

Where were you Daddy when I did get that Bachelor's Degree when all the odds were against me?

Where were you Daddy when they didn't understand me when I tried to apologize for their perception of me?

When I tried to explain and no one would or could hear the sincerity in my voice

Where were you Daddy when I needed you to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright, "I GOT YOU BABY".

DADDY I LOVE YOU AND I AM STILL WAITING ON YOU TO COME AND GET ME !!!

I DON'T THINK YOU KNOW WHO I AM PIMPIN

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS TRICK, HE GOT ME MESSED UP FA REAL!!! I am sitting here in the car waiting on my girl Natasha to come out of the BP on Magnolia, when I see Eugene kissing some female on the neck coming out of the store. They look all happy and cheesing, so he must have been with her for a minute. He always giving some excuse why we can't go out because he working at the studio, I guess the studio got a name and its this girl right here. But, that's okay I grew up with all brothers and would get a beat down from them if I act like this knuckle head got my head all messed up. I was taught early to handle my buziness and never let a man see me sweat. Just get busy with my own life and dont worry about him.

Eugene is straight foul on this, knowing my family on this part of town. I hear my phone buzzing in my purse and it's my girl Natasha texting me that Eugene and some trick were in the store. See, that's what I'm talking about, I dont want to have to kick Tasha's ass for getting all in my shit about this boy. Why can't men at least not disrespect your geography? But, this always happens, and then his ass be blowing my damn email, phone and sidekick up...I be like, "is this an emergency, WHAT DO YOU WANT?"...And, what he don't know is I already know she is married as hell. Just stupid, does he not think her ass will cheat on him too...She tell him all her business with her husband and then he swear that makes his simple ass special. He gone treat me like an afterthought and be putting her up like she all that..NOT PIMPIN The same way she doing him and wanting you, she gone be wanting another ninja when she get you. She is a cheater DUDE, and you know you want to be HER ALL AND ALL... Well, be careful how you get people and how you start a relationship off, cuz that same stick gone be measured against YOU..

I drop Tasha off and go home so I can hook up with her later at "Club Shakes". I put on some Keyshia Cole's, "Didn't I Tell You" and run me a bubble bath. I know that hot water will help to ease some of the tension in my body from the business I got to handle with Eugene. If he think I'm going to go for this continual disrespect I know HE DON'T KNOW WHO I AM. So, I am standing here in the mirror after my bath and shaking my ass to Keyshia. I do alittle shimmy shake to the part where she says, "WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND ITS ALWAYS BEEN THAT WAY...DIDN'T I TELL YOU BOY". I keeps booty popping so when I do that shit tonight when my that fine ass Johnathan be sitting there staring at your girl, he will know my skillz are on point. What Eugene dont know is when I take a break between men, I still practice droppin it like its HOT AND gyrating my Kitty Kat to ensure that snapping pussy is STILL FIYAH...!!!! He BETTA ASK SOMEBODY BOUT ME, I'M JUST SAYIN.

Be careful what you do pimpin, that very woman you try to run over is the ONE YOU GONE BE LOOKIN FOR IN THE END....Like Aretha says, "JUST TRYIN TO PUT YOU ON GAME"!!!

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I am so excited about this weekend's "State of the Black Union" (SOBU), which airs on C-SPAN with Tavis Smiley. This is the 10th anniversary for the event and Tavis, love him or hate him, you have to give him props for getting black thinkers together in a common dialogue. The event is going back to it's roots to the Los Angeles Convention Center, starting at 11(ET), on Saturday, February 28, 2009.


I have watched this every year and am always educated, motivated and anticipating becoming a better me. With the election of an African American president, I think now more than ever blacks need to take control of themselves and make it happen. Whatever that is for you, you make the call. We can no longer sit around and be spectators of life, but we have to be participants in our own comeuppence. Whoa is me is not acceptable anymore, not that it ever was, but now we have a call to action. We now have something even greater to aspire to, may that is to be a better person, more education, have better relationships or to be better parents.


I know that I have some new boost me up every week, but I am sincere in my plea. As a people we built this country and we need to start walking like "we are somebody." Not with arrogance, but with boldness because we know we have dotted all the "i's" and crossed the "t's." Psst... come closer, yeah you, when you are the shit, trust me when I tell you, EVERYONE KNOWS IT. You don't have to spend your time shouting it to the world, or buying things you cannot afford, greatness has a certain walk and behaves in a certain way. Greatness also has a swagger that cannot be ignored, PAY ATTENTION!!!!


The Huffington Post has an article today, which I have attached, that is about the President meeting with the members of the Black Caucas. It goes for interesting read, and it might jump start more than ever why we need to start being aware of what's going on in the world, and especially in our own communities. And, by community I don't necessarily mean just in your rich neighborhood, I mean people who have your skin tone.




http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/02/26/obama-meets-with-black-ca_n_170125.html

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Barack Obama's Presidential Address

http://www.cnn.com/2009/POLITICS/02/24/sotn.obama.transcript/

I know most of you watched the President's Address last night and it is one for the record books. I for one was most honored to witness President Obama's first Address to the Nation. He came hard and with great enthuasiasm for our great nation to become the power house it once was before President George W. Bush stole the election in 2000.

You could feel the tension in the air through the television screen, but Obama was being a comedian and got a few jabs in there on the Repubs who have been filibustering since he took office. One person to watch was Uncle Festus, (John McCain), I thought he was going to have a conniption fit sitting right there. He knew all eyes were on him, so he tried to not let his face give him away.

I sincerely hope that our leaders can come together for the good of the American people and not concentrate too much on personality. We have a grave problem and without working together we can ensure that it will only get worse. But, one thing I cannot ignore was that after the address, all sorts of people were getting an autograph from the Prez. I have never seen that in my lifetime, and I always watch when the president addresses the nation. That was a site to behold on a real tip, when I saw old white leaders begging for a handshake and holding there little program out for an autograph. PRICELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I posted the video and the transcript for your listening pleasure.

I DO ALL OF THIS FOR YOU AND ME

For You - Kenny Lattimore

What's goin on peeps?

I was researching music as usual, and came across this cut from 1996, of Kenny Lattimore's, "For You." This was that one, back in the day when music was good and taught you something in the process. Kenny is not only giving a slow, relaxing ballad, but teaching people how to love. If more people would look for these qualities in their mate their would be less divorces and just bad relationships.

I know you may have a point that only last while you are dating, but some do have good relationships. So, I say it's in the connections and not the people themselves. I have seen a terrible guy to one of my friends, be a totally different man with someone else. Alot of how we are treated by others, have to do with our expectations and how we feel about ourselves. If, you don't love you, WHY DO EXPECT SOMEONE ELSE TO?

This is the year of new beginnings, and I for one am going to work on my issues and shortcomings. We must first take a look at self and start with that. It might take you a while, but anyone can be a better you, if only you BELIEVE.

It is time out for settling for less than you feel you deserve, may that be mate, job, vehicle or living accomodations. If, you need more education, enroll in school, better credit, start paying off those credit cards, whatever your issue, take the first step. No greatness starts off at the top, you have to take baby steps. Marinate on Kenny's words, and acknowledge your greatness. It's only a matter of time before you will be checking behavior in people and only accepting what you think you are worth.

I am going to be the first to congratulate you and tell you that you are a QUEEN OR KING, now WALK IN IT!!!!

For you I'd give a lifetime of stability
Anything you want of me
Nothing is impossible
For you there are no words or ways to show my love
Or all the thoughts I'm thinking of
Cause this life is no good alone
Since we've become one
I've made a change
Everything I do now makes sense
All roads end
All I do is for you

For you I share the cup of love that overflows
And anyone who knows us knows
I would change all faults I have
For you there is no low or high or in between
Of my heart that you haven't seen
Cause I share all I have and am
Nothing I've said's hard to understand
All I feel I feel deeper still
And always will
All this love is for you

Every note that I play
Every word I might say
Every melody I feel
Are only for you and your appeal
Every page that I write
Every day of my life
Would not be filled without the things
That my love for you now brings

For you I make a promise of fidelity
Now and for eternity
No one could replace this vow
For you I'd take your hand and heart
And everything
And add to them a wedding ring
Cause this life is no good alone
Since we've become one you're all I've known
And if this feeling should leave I'd die
And here's why
All I am is for you

Everything I do now makes sense
All roads end
All I do
Is for you
Only for you

I LOVE BEING WITH YOU

Good Morning Bubbie,

I just wanted to jot down a little note to let you know that I love you...I know sometimes we get busy doing and working and forget that we need to take the time to tell each other how we feel. I know I am blessed to have you in my life and I dont ever want you to think I take that for granted. Since, you have been with me I have grown tremendously as a person, woman, and mother. You put me in such a good mood that I let the kids slide with things that would normally get my goat.

Everytime I'm with you I just smile to myself and think IS THIS FOR REAL? I have never felt so open and free with anyone like this in my life. Nothing forced just listening to you breathe sometimes is enough for me. We can be on the phone or in person, I love lying on your chest and camping out. I didn't really want you to know that you had that kinda affect on me, I felt that was giving up too much. From my experience when you let someone know your true feelings about them they might get the big head and start taking you for granted. But, you are even more into me know that you know I really love you. I love when you leave me a note before I leave for work in the mornings, I look at it often as I handle my work deadlines and it helps get me through the day.

So, I decided to write you alittle note to let you know that I love having you in my life and wanted you to know I appreciate everything that you do. When I come home on Wednesdays and you have dinner already cooked and laundry started, that is just truly special to me. When I can walk in the door and the kids are doing their homework and the television is off like I asked you to do. That is paramount for me baby, that you listened to me when I talk and don't disregard my wishes. It is so important that we keep the doors of communication open in our relationship. And, with you that doesn't seem like a chore. I like how you let me in on your day and listen intentively to me tell you about mine. Sometimes I try to come up with fly shit to talk about so I can watch how you respond to me. You are such a joy and a breath of fresh air to have around.

We have had our struggles in this relationship too, like when you lost your job and money got alittle tight. I didn't mind taking care of all the bills at all because I knew you were on the pavement looking for work. And, although we had that setback, the job you have now has opened the door for you to pursue that production company you always dreamed about. See, everything works out for the good, we just have to set goals and plan a course of action. That's what I like about you Bubbie, you are never complacent, you are always using your noodle to make things better. It feels good to watch your mind at work, and I don't have to wonder what you are thinking you share your inner most thoughts and dreams with me.

So, as I sit here and listen to Tony Terry's, "With You", I just smile because I have everything in you that he is spitting in this beautiful song. And, everything is alright in my world, because I HAVE YOU!!!!!

ARE YOU OBSESSED?

Okay, Bey it at it again and this time she has a better leading cast. This movie is a remake of many before, but with a black and white twist. So, my question is, would you pay $9.50 to see this movie?

MLK Oratory winner: Gerra Gistand

This young girl is a force to be reckoned with already and she is still in elementary school.